“The first thing I want to say is that, I hate these photos.
My original intention was inspired by Jungian Theory, talking about how self and shadow, anima and animus. However, I had such a plan for my project that I started drawing sketch for the photos, even planning for their emotions. I used five rolls of film, took them to the darkroom. When I was reviewing the contact sheet I knew it was way off what I was ought to do. As a photographer, I hate snap shots, I always believe that light setting, appropriate communication makes the best protraits. However careful planning does not mean showing the emotions I planned myself instead of taking the real expressions people have.
Those photos look so fake.
Then I took another three rolls about myself. The doubt I have about the project, the self-hate and the frustration, which, you can see on my face. They show the challenge I met during this month, the conflict between dream and reality.
Conflict is an essential elment in my photos.
And here I am showing you this series of my self doubt. They are such of the reality, that I can’t stop hating them”